I reluctantly admit that about three weeks ago I was filled with serious fear and doubt. At the time we had raised about $120,000, but still needed another $65,000. It seemed too much, too hard, too scary, too presumptuous, too stupid. I pulled Jeff aside and asked him quite seriously, “Are you SURE this is what we’re supposed to be doing? Are you sure this is God’s will? Are you sure we’re supposed to continue on in this journey? He patiently answered me with a loving, yet solid “YES”!
As he left the room, I think he thought I was convinced. I even thought I should be convinced, but it was still too big and too much.
I sat down and had a heart-to-heart with God. “Father,” I prayed, “I just need a sign. I feel funny asking, but I really need to hear confirmation from You. Please.” In less than an hour, He answered. When I opened the mail, checks totaling $11,100 were piled on my desk! Two of those checks were for $5,000—each from people who had told Jeff they wouldn’t be able to give this time!
I felt deeply loved by my Father, and a tiny bit chastised. Why should I have ever doubted? God led us down this path. He is our Camp Director. He is in charge. All the details of this purchase are His problem, not ours. I quickly said a prayer of thanks and apology.
Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us,
to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
Ephesians 3:20 NLT
Today, the balance still needed has been shaved to $23,677. In just ten weeks, God has provided $161,923 in gifts and pledges, and a no-interest loan to cover the balance while we continue to fundraise! The new Program House belongs to Jonah Ministries!
I am overwhelmed. May I never, ever, ever be doubtful or underwhelmed again. May the amazement of this faith journey flow out of our doors to touch others and bring them to the point of dreaming big dreams with our Father who has the overwhelming capacity to guide and provide.
We like to say that Jonah Ministries is a place “Where Kids Laugh, Hearts Change, and God Smiles.” My heart has certainly changed and I know God is smiling.